sakagura

a place that blew me away slightly. atlas it was around midnight and silly me did not have the appetite to tuck in too much. nevertheless it was a nice date.

silly me feels that the rolly polly doorman scrutinizes my moves and i can imagine him shaking his head each time he sees me with a different guy. i was that conscious that i requested the car to be parked further down the road and when it was time to leave, i had to pluck up courage to walk into my building and smile sweetly at him.

burnt and crashed

the company has break for the memorial day vacation. work will resume next tues. im expecting a sight when i get back to office on wed- a burnt sight. i remembered that it was almost hilarious to see many people burnt from their beach vacation. i have told mike to have a nice tan when he said he was going to bum on the beach. he replied candidly, well, i ll burn usually, but i ll try.

indeed.
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im going through a roller coaster ride with him. i prayed for him today, hoping that he will get out of his depression soon.

windy and warmth

it has been a while since i last went lunch with beary. it was as if things were back to they once were. he was walking on my right, the wind was blowing against my face. so when i turned to my right to talk to him, my hair was all over my face. he gently gathered them and tucked them behind my ear.

at that moment, i dint know how to react.

x men III

i cant wait to watch this show.

"Iceman: You seem like you're avoiding me, I mean something's wrong.
Rouge: I can't touch my boyfriend without killing him.
Iceman: Have I ever put any pressure on you?
Rougue: You're a guy Bobby. Your mind's only on one thing. "

quitting nyc

had the "glorious retreat from nyc-in the name of love" for cy and ll yesterday. they will be missed by many of us.

im under the weather. head is numb. nose is blocked. making whizzing sound. unbearable. and getting cold feet for the paper end of the month.

beer pong

 
team event. was fun, messy and wet.

3 guys tried to pick me within the span of 3 hours. i was horrified. 

i miss daddy

 talking to him is so soothing. though i dint bring up the issue that is vexing me with him, but it was soothing to listen to him talk.

i am his baby, his princess. 

xroad

i only have myself to make decisions. i dont know if this is too soon. or there are many better choices out there that i should wait and see instead of jumping at one. i dont know. im lost lost lost shit. and there is no one that i can talk to.

one saturday night

i dint sulk at home and went out with ll, sy and bt. it has always been interesting to talk to sy. he will challenge things that you say and offers his perspective. health is his top priority and he truly means that so nothing else ruffles him. bt has the corny side of him that no one can emulate. ll was looking pretty in her wedges.

had my cravings for scallops satisfied at Pearl Oyster Bar.

the man who cried wolf

was going to make an exception for him to go out but as usual, he is playing games with me. its VERY frustrating. i wish that he is not doing this to me. i hate it that he keeps saying "i ll make it up to you". what the fuck?? what does that mean? am i not understanding english? or is sorry that cheap? are things plain simple that im not reading him correctly? ive been killed by him for the past 2 weeks. argggh. im really really frustrated. what s up with the world??

thurs night
him hi
me hello =)
him how are you?
him i've been so damn busy
me i know
me i felt neglected ahaha
him sorry
me kidding, why so busy?
me are you home? hope so
him i'll make it up to you
me ok, no worries im fine
him i can't make it up to you?
him you will not allow?
me no i mean, its fine, understand that you are busy

fri evening
him hi
me hi
me still swamped?
him yah
him it sucks
him thought i would sneak in a hello
me oh nice
him i notice i don't get visits anymore
me ok you ll get what you want

cloudy

 
this is the window view that i have in the team room. loved it initially cos i could look far to the hudson river and see the line of yellow cabs in the evening. but my mood swings with the weather.

today was a cloudy day. my mood was cloudy. 

reservation

this is kinda weird. i have to blog it. some guy has told me "i ll take you out soon. k?". i replied "ha you sound like you are taking a kid out to her first mac's meal". he replied "no. i mean i ll wine you and dine you." this was enough to give me a fuzzy feeling. but i dont understand why there is a waiting time involved. he seems to be waiting for something to transpire before he thinks its alright to go out with me, even just a normal outing with a friend, not that we have expressed keen interest in each other. i asked him if he wasnt free this weekend, he gave me a reason, which was not unbelievable but it left me in the same puzzled state.

its a silly waiting game, which i dont really like to play. i was distracted this week due to this exchange. sigh. i need some magic in my life.

sushi craving satisfied

Sushi Yasuda was very good. the sushis were so petite and bite-size that they fit perfectly into my mouth. and yes, they melted in my mouth too. yum. definitely a place that i will go back again, for some comfort sushi.

may the fourth be with you

crasygracie may the fourth be with you
jame-si okie dookie
jame-si what is that all about
crasygracie huh you dint catch it?
jame-si didn't know you were throwing it
crasygracie haha crap

tug no more

the magical feeling has vanished. i can move on. yay.

it is a high of 76F today. yay.

heartstrings

heartstrings - The deepest feelings or affections

when someone is able to have a tug at my heartstrings, what does that mean?

unexpected gift

justin gave me the urge to go outdoor yesterday. i was at home for the day, studying. stepped out to go to church and the weather made it simply irrestible for me to not hang outside. my legs found their way to the hudson river park. there was an entry at 55th st. it was a shame that i did not discover the place earlier and yesterday was the first time to the park. i was blown away by the serenity, the hushness, the cleanliness of the place.

it was an unexpected gift. my timing couldnt have been more perfect. the sun was setting. it was me and the "sea" and the sun. a complete closure to the weekend.