deflated

i do not wish that all my entries are lousy but somehow i dont share joy with my blog. seems to be an outlet for my woes and downs.

yesterday was such a bad day at work. i felt completely disheartened and let down by the pple i am working with, especially the guy at the top. well, maybe he doesnt think that i work with/for him since he hardly talks to me. he usu sends the msg to the other manager who will talk to me. i ll send my work to the manager who will send to him.

so when i was trashing out things with the so-called admin and support functions, he chose to shrug his shoulders and dint want to get involved. wtf. so having getting dinners from edine before i left for home and then busting my ass off the 2 days i was back, i was so f-ed off by the incident that i left early. no doubt partly i had a dinner appointment but maybe it was god-sent so that i can walk away from my work.

its tuff when different pple have different priorities and how much they are willing to put in. i think i have such strong job ownership and pride that i am willing to slough for it but sadly (or gladly for those), its not the same for everyone. so its really a mentality of suck it up and just do it kind of thing. that guy chose to walk away but it doesnt mean there is no deliverable for him at the end of the day. the job still has to get done (by me), but he doesnt care how- it will be nicely wrapped and presented to him.

so tell me, how motivated can i be when such things happen?

SO RESTLESS

really really restless
kept snacking
kept moving ard
drinking 2nd coffee
eating more
nature valley bar
m&m
small lunch
ahhhhhhhhhhhh

i over-worked from mon to thur and this is what usually happens on fri- totally unfunctional