galatians 5:18

i was very excited to discover there is a weekly lunchtime mass at victoria theater. last wednesday, there was a mini episode in the office and i was just feeling low with all the built up from the previous weeks and the economy gloom looming over. things are just not that good in general. was not struggling with my month-ends but i guess it was overall stuff that was looming over my head and sucking me dry. im beginning to dislike the culture of my company, how things are structured that made it rather competitive and political. how you have to appear to be contributing a lot, how you are part of the operating plan, how glorified your work is as compared to others. things being the way they are, i have to cover for someone else just because she s probably handling the more critical thing. and that being said, this eats into my time of doing the extras, the extras that count most in the eyes of the top. so its a struggle to be a team player and to shout, its not fair.

i dont really know how to handle it. it seemed that i shld just put in more hrs so that i cover my own extras since i dont have the time during working hrs as im covering for the other. somehow my body is reluctant and i havent had the power to fight against that.

with this backdrop, i was really happy to find god at the end of the tunnel yet again. going for the mass relieved some steam though the problem remains. its amazing how the bible can speak about things that are so true in my everyday life. weakness of the flesh vs the fruits of the spirit that im constantly earning for and working towards (i hope). its indeed a very difficult struggle.

galatians 5:18

works of the flesh
immorality
impurity
incentiousness
idolatry
sorcery
hatreds
rivalry
jealousy
outbusts of fury
acts of selfishness
dissensions
factions
occasions of envy
drinking bouts
orgies
and the likes

fruits of the Spirit
love
joy
peace
patience
kindness
generosity
faithfulness
gentleness
self-control

smile more

jy said "you should smile more"
i asked "is that in relation to me or a general remark?"
jy said "in general, all of us should smile more. ya grace, you hardly smile."

i will try harder. not that i dont already know. becoming a very moody person, very touchy, very easily frustrated, always in the-whole-word-is-dumb kind of mood. people in the office really gets to me many atimes. weird characters.

panicking

its monday perhaps that s why i feel so unwell and butterflies in stomach when i think of amt of work to go through and not looking forward at all have always been a happy worker amt of work doesnt get to me is this because i dont like the kind of work that im doing now or what monday blues i hope they certainly can kill

dining 4 at the halia

halia: 9/19 with the AM pple who were in the office for the 2 days meeting. im not in the know, i wldnt have known you can dine in the botanical gardens, apart from at au jardin les amis. so i shouldnt comment too much lest i get mocked at for being ignorant. anyway the meal wasnt so much for the meal right? corporate events are meant for networking and who is seating with who at which table. well i really dint see it that way. it wasnt such a bad dinner.

dining 3 at flutes at the fort

nibbling

flutes at the fort: 9/12 we were there for es' farewell part 2. i like the place- it felt like you were dining at your own balcony, in your bungalow. outdoor, with wooden floors and ceiling fans so it wasnt like a silly indoor carpeted bow tie dining experience. however the food disappointed badly. perhaps cos we went for the executive's set lunch? the tomato-mussels soup was fine, the main (some kind of australian fish) dint blow me away and dessert was the worst. i cant remember what it was but was overly sweet and felt like it was hanging out on the kitchen table far too long.

chloe was definitely the center of my attention till she fell asleep. even that was so cute.

dining 2 at morton's the steakhouse and ___

this was a happy hour on 9.11 for es' farewell part 1. at morton's the steakhouse in mandarin oriental. we had a nice cosy bar corner to ourselves. i think from 5 to 7pm, there was free flow of the steak mini-burger which was really a slab of fatty beef patty with mayo between 2 slices of untoasted bread. free flowing meaning the servers will come by every half hr with plates of the sandwiches and you were only allowed one at one time cos i was told to take a portion though i was not going to eat it.

seemed like its a pity im not a steak lover. i tried a bite for the sake of it cos you dont wanna miss out on this kind of free treats right? but i really dint like it. and i got sick by the thought of the carbs and calories and fats from the bread and mayo.

had the lychee margarita which was not bad but again, i dint finish it. it wasnt that nice after it was left chilling out by itself cos it turned unchilled. the interesting part was striking up the conversation with the dr who turned out to be quite an academic. not sure how to pass a judgement on him- he s very factual and logical when he talks, even when he is talking about past events relating to himself, he can sound very detached from himself. hmm..

walked over to DXO at esplanade? dont even remember that place becos it s not worth mentioning. just remembered the free flow of moet champagne courtesy of the guy who announced his resignation before toasting.

pardon my english in this post. i seemed to have personified my margarita and talking in very rhetoric way- "dr who turned out to be quite an academic"- gee drs are academics!

dining 1 at the white rabbit

started with some "fine" dining and i should jot them down since they arent that memorable. note that i had it as "fine" dining and not "fine dining". not memorable but been there and can strike off the list.

9.6 the white rabbit: wish that this place dint disappoint so much but it did. it started off so well cos all 6.5 of us were able to make it. its been a while since we all got together. and it was a lunch for jamesi who just turned a yr older the day before. he had the table under his pen name james ford which sounded so cute already. and white rabbit- somehow this name conjures up other images for us. a 1pm reservation with pple turning up at 130, 145, 215, 230. food was ordered. supposedly "fresh take on classic european comfort food"- dont think the dishes made it. salad was fine, the dressing a bit too oily for my liking. smoked salmon eggs benedict- really bad. the hollandaise sauce was non-existent, the smoked salmon portion pathetic. marinara seafood pasta was good at least but it not difficult to make good pasta right? just lotsa of sauce and make sure the pasta is not starchy. not sure if the tays enjoyed theirs. had to wait for the princess to arrive to order our wine. picked something that had run out. the white that we picked in the end came unchilled. she had the mac and cheese, which is their signature dish, was inedible according to her. i cautioned against ordering that cos i do not know of many places that make good ones. you usualy make the best mac and cheese at home.

place was nice. dempsey location. converted from an old chapel. lots of space for shannon to run around. wooden floor with high ceiling. this seemed to be my kind of place at the moment. ever since back home, i hate air-conditioned places. i would feel suffocated.