snow

2nd snowfall for me in nyc for winter 08. was caught by surprise. while trying to balance in my high heeled boots, i looked up constantly to watch snow fall from above. it was a beautiful sight when the subway got above ground in astoria. all the buildings have a layer of white over it. fresh white snow feels fun and soft and unthreatening. life can get as beautiful as this.

this is what i will miss when i go home. im constantly thinking of home now because marmi is at home. but i think of what i will miss of ny when i leave, my heart aches. ny, how i love my life here. i know i ll shed tears on the day i leave here.

the point that i dont get involved emotionally with anyone here, because i dont belong here. i dont think it is an excuse. it is a very vaild point for me. im too emotional and the hurt would have been unbearable.