keeping it up

i can feel myself sinking this week. second week since im back from my vacation. perhaps because i have started to study and house hunting is simply driving me crazy. i kept having to remind myself "life is beautiful" cos it truly is. but i realized that as i get back to the norm of things, the norm of things get to me.

i wish i can blame it on pms. friday is usually a good day for me. it started well, however the house hunting in the middle of the day got to me. next, i had intended to stay back after work to study before heading for the show at 9.35pm. i was so miserable while in office that i made an irrational move: i grabbed a mocha frapp and espresso brownie from starbucks. this was something that i would never do if im in a clear state of mind; those fats and calories were just so hard to burn off! in the end, the treats did not lift me up but left me bloated and guilt-striken instead.

checked out max brenner late into the night ( i have just returned and am blogging now) so im fat fat fat now. got to go to gym tm.

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