the dream that flopped

havent been sleeping well. apparently two nights ago, i was screaming in my sleep/dream and scared my brother but i dont recall him running into my room and screaming away. this morning i woke up from my nightmare/dream. well, it was someone that i have been thinking about recently. perhaps i have a real deep burning desire inside me that wants to see him thus the dream, which was more of a nightmare. the dream seemed to take place right before i was to wake up becos i woke up at 640am from fright of the images. i was crossed- both with the fact that it wasnt much of a sweet dream-come-true thingy and i was supposed to be going for my run at 615am.

damnit. i have to control my thoughts. no more thoughts of him so that i dont get such nightmares. but then if no more thoughts, then i have nothing to look forward to.