galatians 5:18

i was very excited to discover there is a weekly lunchtime mass at victoria theater. last wednesday, there was a mini episode in the office and i was just feeling low with all the built up from the previous weeks and the economy gloom looming over. things are just not that good in general. was not struggling with my month-ends but i guess it was overall stuff that was looming over my head and sucking me dry. im beginning to dislike the culture of my company, how things are structured that made it rather competitive and political. how you have to appear to be contributing a lot, how you are part of the operating plan, how glorified your work is as compared to others. things being the way they are, i have to cover for someone else just because she s probably handling the more critical thing. and that being said, this eats into my time of doing the extras, the extras that count most in the eyes of the top. so its a struggle to be a team player and to shout, its not fair.

i dont really know how to handle it. it seemed that i shld just put in more hrs so that i cover my own extras since i dont have the time during working hrs as im covering for the other. somehow my body is reluctant and i havent had the power to fight against that.

with this backdrop, i was really happy to find god at the end of the tunnel yet again. going for the mass relieved some steam though the problem remains. its amazing how the bible can speak about things that are so true in my everyday life. weakness of the flesh vs the fruits of the spirit that im constantly earning for and working towards (i hope). its indeed a very difficult struggle.

galatians 5:18

works of the flesh
immorality
impurity
incentiousness
idolatry
sorcery
hatreds
rivalry
jealousy
outbusts of fury
acts of selfishness
dissensions
factions
occasions of envy
drinking bouts
orgies
and the likes

fruits of the Spirit
love
joy
peace
patience
kindness
generosity
faithfulness
gentleness
self-control