so fucked up

you yearn for things that you cant get. so you know what my biggest yearning is? i really really want to travel so much. i m not doing as much as i wish i am or had. i think one of the biggest regret when i leave this place is that i did not go to as many places as i could have. and its so frustrating because its not that i dont have the money or the time. i dont have a traveling buddy so things are just so out of my control. i get frustrated over things that i have no control over. so sad.. really.. i get depressed over this fact. if only im dumb and not exposed to what the world can offer. if only i dont have the money or that im a stingy introvert who only likes to stay at home and keep my money in the bank. what a fuckup world.