monday morning

monday morning is always a slow one. im sitting at my cube, 29-056c. my neighbor is here but the row of people sitting behind me is not here yet. there is no hustle and buzz yet. i have my radio on and the divider blocks me from the sight of other people. its hard not to ponder about things, hard to stop my mind from wandering. its painful. its hard to move on to places, to other things cos i dont know how not to look back to see what i have left behind- nice co-workers, friends, familiar surrounding, comfort zone, security. why cant i stop thinking? can someone teach me how to move on? its almost unbearable, and im short of tearing myself up.