balance

i dont know how to reconcile this. i hate people who look you up only when they have favors. so when you hear from them, you know that they have stuff to ask or favors they need help with. this is not a bad thing right? i mean, this is how the world works right?

offhand, i can think of 2 people who are like that. this person called j. i dont even want her to label her as my friend cos we are just like, you know, well, sporeans.. know each other, hang out when there is a gathering for sporeans. but i came to realize that each time i hear from her, its because she wants to know about something. she doesnt call me but she ll msn me. the last round, i cldnt really be bothered cos i dint want to help so i dint reply to her msn.

anyways, this entry is not about her. its abt that friend that broke my heart. so i dint hear from her since the movie date. and i think i probably blogged before that i dont hear from her either, unless she has favors from me. so it is happening again. and im just so vexed. cos i know, to be a nice person, i shld oblige and help her out but i dont really fucking care. so i just want to ignore. but i feel like a jerk if i do that so im so tormented now. that s why im questioning my actions.