activity buddies

feel so happy to see him feel so happy when receiving sms from him feel so happy when he comes to pick me up but somehow all feel like a dream. i dont know what he is thinking cant decipher. he has been a perfect gentleman doesnt try to touch me or get intimate. not that i want that from him but somehow this is the missing piece. so perhaps at the end of it all, he just likes me as an activity buddy and msn buddy. i have to bring myself back to earth. my heart is actually hurting a bit. so its an up and down ride again. i ll be seeing him often so i have to tell myself WE ARE JUST ACTIVITY BUDDIES. its painful.