its not what i think it is is it

its not what i think it is is it

the day started with him messaging if i slept well, told me he dint wanna wake up then the verse of the day. subsequently more msges about his blue day and his lunch. then he asked what i was having for lunch. and "eat somethin even if u have no appetite". well i thought that was sweet. i dont think im overly sensitive but really, will a friend just care so much about his activity buddy??

more text throughout the afternoon. one came in ard 5ish asking if my class has finished. well, i had reached home when i saw that and i thought i will just call him which i did. he sounded surprised and well, was really short <1min but i guess i just wanted to perk him up. a msg came subsequently "U are funny..thank u for the call.." i flirted back and said what funny.. thought i was cute which i honestly thought i was. he replied "....u are so cute!" to which i said "walau its so not convincing" to which he said "Haha no choice la through sms hard to show emotions.. no personal touch but believe me it came deep deep from my heart". well he doesnt really flirt cos i dont think he knows so i do believe what he said. more subsequent text about going for a run tmr which i had said no since he wanted to strengthen his knee in the gym and i said that running on the trackmillwas better for his knees. so i wanted to flirt back to which i said "is your knee better or you want to see me?!..." he replied saying he needed a run, we got to have more run since running out of time (no pun intended from me) and always good to have a company to run with... *EYES ROLLED* so i should just kill myself for flirting like that right??

so how do you conclude this? guess its purely platonic???? am i reading too much into things?? all the msges, all the invites to watch him play golf, soccer, coming by to pick me up to the game and from timbre.... i really dont know how to make out of all the things. they are getting too much for me... really... on my way home just now, i was thinking of how to bring up the topic, want to tell him that i cant take it anymore.. i dont want all the attention he has been giving if he meant it for his activity buddy. i dont work like him.

was breathing so hard while walking home my heart was bleeding too.. why are things so difficult?