
im finally home... after a week of dawg-sitting. i missed my apt and my bed so much. i think im showing symptoms of OCD. i was so miserable staying over at m&m's house. i dint move much when i slept on their bed. i held my breath while in their bathroom- disliked the damp and wet smell. i HAVE to shower before i get into bed but i dint do that last sunday. and when dawn broke, i walked haze hurriedly and left their house to shower in my gym. it was bad. dont quite understand why they are not keeping their house in a better state- they are not renting it; they own it.
had a business event on fri and though it ended after lunch, i dint go back to office but came home. guess what i did? laundry. and mopped the floor. guess what i did last sat noon? i left haze at their place and came home to wash the sofa that he pee-ed on. guess what i did before i left harry's place on sat's afternoon? laundry. im mad- seemed to have a HUGE need to keep my apt clean and neat and doing laundry seemed to liberate me. i dont like doing it but the smell of clean clothes and empty laundry basket make me feel good.
well, its finally over. the back-to-back dawg-sitting. worned out totally. very exhausted. however, the emptiness is back again. what is wrong with me?
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