platonic

Platonic love in its modern popular sense is an affectionate relationship into which the sexual element does not penetrate, especially in cases where one might easily assume otherwise. A simple example of platonic relationships is a deep, non-sexual friendship between two heterosexual people of the opposite sexes.
~ from wikipedia

i dont think it exists. maybe just because i dont think i can do it so i dont think it exists.

it s cruel how things work in life. we never have much to say to each other previously. we just hang out in the group. then he got attached. ok, good for him. im still alone. not sure what happened, oh.. i remember. it was after we got back from sg. we were msning. think he was lost, dint know when is a good time to quit ny. i totally understood how he felt, cos im in the same situation. so he said he finally found someone he could confide in and understand what the deal was. the friendship took off from there. well, more so for him i guess.

another comment made by him- he was amazed how i could remain sane when im surrounded by couples. truly, everyone has someone, except me. though its is LDR for him, he still has someone. i smiled at him; i dint know what else to say but to smile, abeit bleeding inside. maybe im dying slowly. i dont know. i try my best and if this is the best that i can do, this is the end right?

i have resolve not to hang out with him alone, but somehow we are doing that rather frequently now. i know i wont say anything that will kill the "platonic love". rather, im guided by my conscience. so how does the story go on from here?