too obliging

i need to stop being so obliging. no mood to go for lunch today but she asked and the usual me obliged. i dint have any craving so the venue was up to her. it was sapporro, then CT, then KT. i was asked if sapporro or CT, i chose CT. then KT came into the picture. I was mutual abt it. i asked lina to go along too. was supposed to leave at 1230, but delayed till 1250. she was like is that too late? Me: huh too late for the restaurant? she: its 1, then it will be 2 plus when we are done with lunch. kinda late. Me: huh it wasnt my idea to eat out. she: ..... (watever she was mumbling, i dint bother to register them). vain me in skirt, and high boots in office. she wanted to take the subway but lina dint have a monthly pass. we tried walking but in the end, i was like, we have to take the train; its too cold for me.

just feel that things are screwed up. maybe its just a lousy day. things were generally not smooth. and litttle things like these bring my mood down. and im wearing a new cardigan, new as in its fresh and nice smelling from my waredrobe. and now it has the restaurant smell. yeeks hating it.

im going to eat a small piece of chocolate to cheer myself up. cramps killing me too. argh.