a calling vs a vocation

(1) get a new job in ny?
(2) get a new job in another country?
(3) go home, and get a new job of course.
(4) end of this year?

im very lost, have come to a crossroad once again. sometimes when i listen to the homily preached, i ll tuned out cos nothing seems to go in. on the other hand, there are many instances when the priest will be talking about things that are on my mind. yesterday was the case. he talked about the difference between a vocation and a calling. specifically, a calling to do God's will, and this is not necessarily the same as a vocation. for eg, it can be a calling to do more volunteer work or make it part of your career, if you can touch people.

so here i am, a very lost sheep. i ll be listening for his soft promptings.