ignorance is bliss

tonight was disastrous.

firstly there were 3 of us so throughout the dinner, she was basically talking to him who was sitting opposite her. dint think she meant to do that, but i did feel that my presence was neglected. and something about her that i noticed and disliked: whenever anyone mentioned anything, her next reply will be: oh mine is blah blah blah. whoever is interested to know what you have to say? its just like lester making a kind comment to chielee previously. whenever he says something abt someone else, chielee has the tendency to speak about herself. it would just seem abrupt and almost too eager to share.

secondly, there are many new characters in her life and you realized that you have been left out totally of her new life. dint expect to get to know these people. but it just sucks to know that you know zilch.

thirdly, ooh she s dating someone now. no one new but its a we-are-back relationship with the ex. i was supposedly told but the fact was that i was not! there was no further comment to let me in on what exactly happened.

fourthly, she s just such a disagreeable bitch. nothing i say is music to her ears. while lining up for our dessert and he made a comment that my coach bag is nice. he meant to suan her by saying that she wont look good carrying it though. but i simply told him, oh its cool. cos i dont think she likes MY bag, so it doesnt matter if she can carry it off.

its tiring. could be a mismatch of expectations here but im no longer disillusioned. know very clearly how the friendship stands and how much effort im going to put in to hold it out.

had Veniero's for dessert: chocolate mousse cake, ny cheesecake, fruit tart and cafe latte. wasnt fantastic. wanted crooked tree. was so so craving for their crepes... nutella with strawberries... YUM but they were closed, surprisingly. hope that its not for good.

im definitely upset, about her and the crooked tree.