Day 1 without LK - 6.17

im sure i would have missed him heaps if not for the silly episode on tues. he wanted me to tell him about the thing i was supposed to but i decided to msg him later because i dont want messages to get lost in the way i said it. i know he was not happy. i had to act cute and get him to talk to me from mos burger till we sat down for lunch. it just got to me after a while. i told him no one has ever thrown a tantrum at me and he will not be the first to do it.

wah the more i thought after it, the more upset i got. when i was done with my lunch, i just had to run away. so i ran away back to the office and stayed uncontactable for the rest of the day.
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i woke up seeing his message and more messages in the morning. i decided to text him back becos he pleaded "pls stop ignoring me". im not sure if i had cooled down yet but i dint want to be so cruel. wasnt that blue at work with was fine but i was bored i know. he slipped into my mind a few times. dint know how to feel how to react how to proceed.

when i got the flowers at night, my heart jumped a little because it was such a pretty bunch. but somehow i felt let down. why did he have to behave the way he did. it felt so petty and so not grown up. after admiring the flowers and fussing over them like getting a vase and taking shots, i checked the phone for his call/text which never did come, i went to bed.