Day 2 without LK - 6.18

"Dont get angry. Dont be upset; it only leads to trouble." - Psalm 37:8

that was the grace for the moment for 6.17. when i read it i was like deh, how appropriate?!

i had wanted to msg him but i decided not to. i am still quite upset. not sure why but am just upset. and he is not around to make me feel better. since he is not around physically, i only want to be alone. not sure when he is going to call me, if ever. i know he is going to say it is expensive, msges and emails will suffice (but it is not so for me). if this is a test of his love for me, he ll probably fail it quite miserably.
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talked over msn. he was at blue pumpkin having his mango smoothie. ah that place has got some memories. me sitting across from him with him surfing the net or checking emails as he would have put it. at that point in time, i had wondered why he dint offer anyone to use his computer. remembered how his eyes had always sparkled when he talked about the must-try mango smoothies.

guessed i felt better to hear his voice. soothed me a little and i cldnt hold my anger any longer. it must be hellish for him trying to get me to talk to him. just finished another conversation with him at home.

baby, i miss you much. wish you can give me a hug now.