Day 6 without LK: 6.22

the walk home from lakeside station can be monotonous or enjoyable. when im too tired i will usually hop on a cab so that i can get home in 5 min. if not the 20 min walk home is usually a zone-out time for me to think about, well life in general i guess.

today's walk home was needless to say, turned towards thoughts on him. it has only been a week but it feels longer than that. i dont like to deal with distance and given the bad experience with it i dont ever want to go through it again.

it feels as if time has come to a standstill. i tried not to think too much, carried on life as usual. i had thought it may be a liberating two weeks- time for me to catch up on my beauty sleep, catch up with family and friends, catch up with my own time. these were things that i fought fiercely for in the few years before april. however surprisingly i really miss him. its not the familiarity that im missing. i think it is too soon to take him/things for granted. in fact, i dont think i will ever take anyone for granted.

i truly enjoy him being around me and me being around him. can i go through times without him in my life now?