Day 8 without LK: 6.24

i went to work feeling not too great. this week isnt that exciting nor stressful. just finishing up the fs and more ticking and tying. it feels like im back to the good old auditing days.

was so excited to see him online!!! yay finally i could talk to him at length. i dont want to take it for granted that we are able to chat online during office hours. before he made it known to me that he likes me (yay), we were chatting quite a fair bit online. i remembered skyping bt and telling her about this guy who tells me his whereabouts. i had thought it to be strange for an activity buddy to be doing that. she told me he probably likes me and i kinda denied. well, we are activitiy buddies right? anyway, during that time, when he was out on his fridays, there will be no msning from him. honestly i felt the void he left. but i couldnt tell him.

not knowing why but i had wanted to give church a miss. but he told me i should go. im glad that i went. although as i type away now i cant remember the homily for that day, i hope that god will not be upset with me for even thinking of not going to see him and be in his presence. im feeling spiritually empty now. not sure what is happening but i think i need more quiet time with god.