Day 10 without LK: 6.26

the waves of pinning for him kept crashing at me. sometimes it gets unbearable. i feel helpless and frustrated at the helplessness. oh well it is a friday and fridays are not meant to be a working day.

i went for my first official massage. i was embarrassed when the masseur commented on my awkwardness. oh well, it was my "first time" afterall. and she said something so tacky- i will give you a good one since you are giving me your first time. *roll eyes* imagine that said in malaysian accented mandarin. luckily it dint turn out too bad though i tried not to giggle when she was massaging my soles and my inner thigns. hmmm...

the consultant tried selling me the ipt for ahem you-know-where. if only i had acted spontaneously i wld have signed up the package. but i wanted to know his thoughts. maybe he ll get a surprise one day.

cant stop talking to him though its not that cheap. the phone conversations are lengthy as if we are both in sg. its so not the way to spend money but i just couldnt stop taking, hearing his voice, teasing him... missing him heaps..