hate

im full of hatred
i hate my work
i hate how things are happening around me
i hate how im treated by some friends
i hate how i say i dont care but yet a tingling feeling inside me says i care
i hate how i have no control over my heart
i hate that im so emotional and sensitive
i hate that im like that
i hate that i cant be un-bothered by things around me and happening to me
i hate that i need people to do things to show that they care
why cant i be numb to things
why do i have to act ok when im not
why do i have to sensitive to others and think that it doesnt matter how i feel cos im supposed to be happy if they are
why do i feel its the shittest period of my life
or am i just forgetful
i hate that im greedy
i hate that i have received something and i want to keep it
i hate that i want to be loved