painful

11/13/05 21:29
Beary: Hey i know your exam is coming i will bring my audit notes for you tommorrow.

11/13/05 21:30
Grace: its ok i have them already thanks
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11/18/05 17:56
Beary: Good luck on your exam

11/18/05 17:57
Grace: are we still frens

11/18/05 18:00
Beary: I always consider you are my friend i do not know why you were mad of me and i did not meet to vent my stress on you
(noted that these are grammatical errors of the sender, not typo errors)

11/18/05 18:05
Grace: its just not right that you did that to a fren and i had e feeling that you think its fine which is totally not. in e first place you are e one who got e whole damn add messed up and you had e cheek to point e finger back at me. i really think its absurb. its not wat you did but more of yr attitude towards e whole thing. im very upset abt everything not sure if you know but i just tell myself its fine cos im dispensible to you. this is always how i ve seen our friendship or all my friendships so i value them and nv take them for granted. i ll then just run away cos its too painful to face it.
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ive been crying inside since the incident, no kidding. its so painful when he s someone who means so much to me. but i cant explain why im not trying to do something about it, or even when he s taking the initiative to talk to me, im still not budging. i hate this thing about myself. i ll regret i know.